Well, there are a lot of people that kind of know what has been going on and are a little informed but here is the whole story from start to finish...

 Life this semester started out really quit insane. The one amazing thing that was starting to happen was the relationship that I was having with Josh. Just so you all know, I love him more than anything and I am going to marry him someday :) Anyway, the semester started out and I was just busy from the start. I ended up getting two different jobs, packed on a full semester load and some, and was still working on student council. I was managing things pretty well when everything started happening with Brian. As you all know Brian almost died on September 9th when he went in for a surgery that should have taken a few hours and he should have been home the next day. Instead he ended up in the ICU in CHOP for 11 weeks. This was stressful on my family especially my parents. As a big sister and totally in love with my little brother this hit me hard. I didn't realize at the time how difficult being away from him really would be.

  Well he was starting on the recovery process and I was trying to manage my time and figure out how I could sleep and also do the 4-5 hours of homework a night that I needed to. I think this all started taking a toll on my downward slope to where I am today. I started waking up in the middle of the night with my heart just pounding and not being able to breath. This happened for about a week and finally one night after about a 40 minutes of this (I had called Josh) at about 3:30 in the morning my dear friends Hannah and Lydia took me to the ER at CMC in Scranton. Josh immediately jumped in his car and headed to PA. After about 6 hours they released me with no real explination except that my potassium was low and I was anemic, but they put me on a heart monitor and I went to my aunts to rest. Over the course of a few days I slept on and off but apparently not well. That Sunday I was feeling better so Josh and I headed to my church. There after Sunday school I got up and started walking down the hallway and passed out. Someone, I think it was my pastor, called an ambulance and they brought me to the hospital and just said that my BP dropped and my sugar may have been low and sent me on my way. I was really hoping that that would have been the end of it and I could get on with my life. But it wasn't. I was still waking up with my heart pounding and I chalked it up to anxiety. But the cardiologist that I work for wanted me to have all sorts of tests done to get down to the real issue of all this.

   About a month or so went by and I was doing ok, still stressed out of my mind. Then on the Monday a week before Thanksgiving. I was sitting in class and I felt really sick, not dizzy but I just didn’t feel right, so I went into the hallway and Hannah followed me. I don't remember too much that happened but I woke up with a whole bunch of people around me and some EMT's. I hit my head but not too hard, but again they brought me to the ER. If your keeping up or have even read this far, this is trip number 3. They let me go and chalked it off as low BP. Wednesday I went to work and was standing at the copier, and the next thing I know I'm waking up in the ER at CMC. Apparently I had passed out and had a seasure. I was at the cardiologist office when this happened so I was in good hands. They decided to admit me and that night I had to stay awake all night for a test that they were going to run on my brain in the morning. I think I cried for most of that night and just prayed. I had no idea what God was doing and I was so frustrated. The next day I seriously talked to my dad about my life and what the trajectory I was headed for. I have had ambivalent feelings about my career path for almost a year, but I felt as though I had gotten so far that I didn't want to just give up and throw in the towel. That day the doctor sent me home on some much needed bed rest.

   Thanksgiving rolled around and my parents and I had kind of come up with a plan. I was going to finish out the semester at BBC and go back to Gloucester County and figure out something there. It all seemed well and good and I finally had a plan... sort of. I got back to school Monday night and went to bed. I woke up Tuesday morning feeling really tired and just not so great. I went to class and after class I stood up and the rest is a blank. I woke up in an ambulance 25 minutes later with a bruised chest and two IV's in my arms. When I got to the hospital I waited alone in a room for about an hour and half before they let Hannah back. I tried calling my dad and Josh and just couldn't get a hold of them. I felt like my life was just spiraling down and I didn't know what to do anymore. I was scared to pass out in anymore classes especially being so far from home. When I got back to my dorm I called Josh and then my dad and we talked through what to do next. That afternoon my dad made a whole bunch of phone calls and worked it out that I would be able to finish the semester at home and finish up my AA through BBC. Everything seemed to be falling into place again, but I still needed to pack and tell some dear friends that I was leaving the next day. That night was really hard. Heather, Lydia, and Hannah stayed up with me and helped me pack as we laughed and just reminisced about the last few years. Wednesday rolled around and I got everything settled with the registrar and in order to finish my AA I have to take a Church Ministry class and another English Class. The Church Min class is one that will be offered online in the spring so there are no problems there and the English class I can take through GCC.

     So here I am. At the moment I am struggling hard with the fact that I’m done with BBC. It’s not so much the school that I am going to miss but the people. Hannah Quigley has without a doubt become one of my best friends this semester. I am not sure how many times we sat and cried together. Lydia and Heather have been so close too, I’m not sure I would have been able to do it without them. There are so many others who have been an encouragement to me this year and I am so thankful. My aunt Sarah has been wonderful to. I have so loved getting to know her on a more personal level this year and she really has become more a friend than an aunt, it helps that she’s pretty young. And I do not want to forget Josh, the love of my life. He has been my rock, my support and my hero these last few months. One nice thing about being home is that now I am much closer to him. I love him so much and don’t worry you all will be invited to the wedding.

   I’m not sure what the next steps in my life story are but for now I am trying to be content with where God has me. I fully admit that I am struggling with contentment and I want all my physical issues to be solved. I have tests and other things coming up, hopefully to really pinpoint the issues that I have been having. I hope it’s a simple solution and I get move on and start working on some more chapters. God is good and faithful, and He has been good to me, and He will do what He sees fit. It’s time for that leap of faith so here I go….

Well it's official. My Best Friend is now a MRS! Last weekend was the wedding and it was beautiful. The weekend itself was just awesome. I went home on Thursday night after work and for the most part, went to bed. On friday Josh came to see me and we spent most of the day together until he had to go to work and I had to leave for the wedding rehearsal.
Saturday morning rolled around and we met at Kristen's house at 7:15 so we could all head over to the salon to get our hairs and makeup done. Fun times. Then we headed to the Church so Kristen could do that whole gettin married thing. The wedding was at 1pm and the reception was a few hours after that. Everything was about wrapped up at about 6:30, so Josh and I went out again and hung out. I have some pictures of the wedding and I'll narrate them as we go.....

This was at the salon after we were all pretty and ready to go.


Don't we all look so purty, All we need now is the dresses


My dad preformed the Ceremony, Doesn't he look good in a suit?


Me and my little bride


I love these girls, I miss them so much when I'm away...


This was before the wedding

 
The big moment...


The whole picture, well sort of... there are some guys cut off


"You may kiss the bride"


Me and Hobie


It was such a Beautiful day


SHOES!!!! I love Kristen's face


These are some of my favorite pictures.


AWWW, yeah yeah, I know I'm being sappy... I don't care!


Casey had my camera and he just kept takin pictures, while we weren't really paying attention





I LOVE THIS ONE!


MMM smells good


Filling the car with Balloons


Getting ready for Sam and Kristen come out...


Here they come!!!


The car was so full of balloons they couldn't get in...


Me and my Grandparents, my grandma kept Josh entertained while I was doing my bridesmaid duties...


Me and Sam

Well there you have it, play by play wedding. This weekend should be just as fun actually. My parents aren't coming for parent's day/homecoming because Brian is still in the hospital and my Grandma and Grandpa aren't coming either cause they have been helpin out my parents. But don't worry I wont be all alone. Josh is coming up Friday and we are going to spend Friday night and all day Saturday together! I can't wait. I miss him... and it's only been a few days since I've seen him. Oh well. Have a great week

Ok, so I'm not going to make this very long, I just want to say one thing.... I am so stressed out!!! I don't know if I have ever been this overwelmed before, but sleeping is becoming a blessing when I get there. Life just seems to be packed full of busy and I'm having trouble keeping up.... but in the mist of all of the crazy. God is still good, and today He gave me an overflow of peace  So all I can do now is just take one thing at a time and just do it. Some prayer would be nice though...

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      So even if it is just for myself, I want to be better at writting on this thing. The last week was pretty much a blur now, at least thats how it seems. My parents went on the 25th anniversary/ second honeymoon trip and I was at home with Brian. Which was fine, but it made seeing Josh at all a little bit of a problem. It just seems like I didn't have enough time with him this last week. Sunday night I packed my car with all my school stuff and Monday afternoon I headed out for PA, where I met the parents at my Grandma C's house. So I spent Monday night and all day Tuesday there, that was nice though. I like just being able to sit back and relax and not think about anything to important. And one really nice thing is the fact that I get some cell phone service so I could still talk to Josh

     Wednesday morning we all left for the long trip to Ohio to see two of my favorite people. So today is Thursday, we went to the airforce museum, and picked up Jonathan and Karen from work and went to Books and Co. which may be my very favorite book store. I love book stores in general .

    And there have been a few people who have asked me how Josh and I met. Well in general we met at camp, but the first time we said anything to each other was on a 5 mile canoe trip that we did with the staff and I saved his Canoe. Thats right I got to play the hero! After that for the next week I kinda ignored him, but a few of my close friends suggested that I get to know him a little better. We started talking and basically at camp, your personality comes out whether you like it or not. Well what can I say he started to grow on me. And even after a summer of camp and him seing my insane side, he still likes me. It's going to be fun to see all this unfold being so far away from each other, but I am very independent and I think that it will be a good thing not seing each other every day.

    Well, I go back to school on Monday for Leadership Week, and I start classes the 26th. I don't feel ready, but I have to be so... here we go! 

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